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posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Monday, June 30, 2008

Time...Do we have enough it?

Today I realised how much time we have, and how much we don't have. We only live once and I realised how much people waste their time with earthly stuff, money, stuff & position.


Why do people waste time? I mean, why do people waste so much time on unimportant stuff when God is sitting there waiting to hear from them?

Labels: Just Writing

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Thursday, June 26, 2008

Nubian Gents

I can't wait for the Nubian Gents they sound soooo cool. I'm just nervous about asking my muslim friend over...Her mom always says no when ever I ask her to come to a church event. I'm praying really hard that her mom will say yes. I said that her family can come too because -if you can't beat 'em join 'em right?- I think that they'll like it too. If only she can come then that already cool. I mean, after like 2 years of asking her mom says yes? That'll rock!!

I wrote the post card invitation and I'm gonna give it to her. I told her if her mom has any questions she can ask my mom. I think her mom will be happy I respect adult authourity. I keep telling her that church is not a place to be scared of, she thinks that we suck out their brains and turn then into mindless zombies or something. I told her it's nothing serious, just some kids (ok, fine, a lot of kids) that get together to hang out. We have a lot of fun, worship rox and the pastor is usually able to keep you from catching zzzzzs in the service.

When she heard my phone ring tone and asked what song was that. I told her is was J.E.S.U.S and she said, "It's a christian song?" I was like duh. She was so suprised I realised a lot of people have the wrong out-looks on Christiananity. They think we're all goody-two-shoes and listen to songs like Jesus Loves Me our whole life. XD

I asked her what she thought Christian music was, and she said the only song she knew was Amazing Grace...I practically burst out laughing that she thought I stood in church singing Amazing Grace all the time!!! I let her hear some Youth Alive songs and Hillsongs and stuff, she was really shocked that we actually listen to rock, contemporary and this century stuff. I just wondered why she never heard my listening to Youth Alive songs.....

Because I was worried about asking her to the Nubian Gents God gave me this verse, "Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season: correct, rebuke and encourage- with great patience and careful instruction." 2 Timothy 4:2 I hope that helps all you readers wanting to invite friends to church!! Just trust in God!! As PJ said last week, "Trust in God, not the event."

L8r!!!

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I'm getting scared...

Yesterday was the last day of vacation. At church they had this game day and fun stuff. Guitar lessons got cancelled because the worship team had to help pass out the prizes.

Yesterday we also celebrated Kenneth's b'day. We had 3 fake cakes and only 1 real one for him to eat. When he tasted the first one they had put jia jia liang die in it. Then the second one they had put salt, pepper and chilli inside. Then Ryan and all the guys kept trying to smash the cake on his face.

Me and the other girls are getting kinda scared about our b'days, seeing what they've done to Darren and Kenneth. Good thing I still have until December for my b'day. I'm still scared though, I hope they don't go and squish cake in my face. The guys say they're not so mean to the girls, but I don't really trust them. I mean they totally put chilli in Darren's cake, they also smashed cake in Kenneth's face and Ryan tried to put a cherry in his hair!!!!!! LOL!!!

Labels: Weekend

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Monday, June 23, 2008

Dark Era 2

I quickly pushed the thoughts of completely ending my life completely to the back of my mind. Why would I end my life for art?I just wanted to end my art, not my life... I was once again stuck with that question, how can I ever give up art? As I thought I realised I had been dragged into history (by Katie) and I was sitting at my desk daydreaming. I glanced at Katie and she was staring at me intently -like I was a interesting piece of art,ugh that word again, why couldn't I ever stop thinking about it?-. I shook off Katie's gaze and tried to not meet her eyes. I didn't need sympathy, I needed an answer.

Whenever I tried to concentrate on my book I just saw Mrs. Tillmans' frown as she flipped through my portfolio. I gave up looking at my book, when I started staring at the white board I noticed a little doodle. That was drawn by me, last week when it was teacher's day. It was of a little flower, that was my signature doodle, a little flower with some of it's petals falling down the side of the paper. I stared at that doodle wondering if I have up art, what would I do? I couldn't think of anything right then and there. When I tried to stare at my book, like I was actually focusing, I could just see what Mrs. Tillman had said, "Don't worry, your art is just a little...inexperienced." I couldn't shake off that word, I'd taken proffesional lessons, I'd entered art competitions (and not won, but I was good enough to enter).

Then I met Katie's eyes and saw peace and love in them. I felt confused, how could she look so peaceful and loving when her heart has just been ripped out? Shouldn't she look enraged and hurt? I looked questioningly at her and she just smiled at me. A real smile, not like the fake one she gave to our teacher when he glared at her for not listening.

I looked at my doodle and realised that the flower was me. My petals had grown and then they slowly started to fall. One by one, if I was a flower I would only have a few petals left. What would I do when I had none?

Labels: Dark Era

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Friday, June 20, 2008

Dark Era 1

I masked my pain with a fake smile. She smiled back at me not knowing she'd just broken my heart. She said, "Don't worry, your art is just a little...inexperienced. I nodded and choked back tears until I'd closed the door. I felt like Mrs. Tillman had just stabbed my heart instead of just looked at my portfolio. I looked up when I heard foot-steps, thank goodness it was just Katie. She noticed my tears and asked, "Faith, are you ok?" I shook my head thinking what kind of stupid question that was -I barely ever cry-. She saw my portfolio and plucked it out of my hands. After she'd flicked through the first few sketches she closed it and started staring at me. I looked questioningly back at her and slowly her story came out. "I went to out music teacher and asked if I could audition for the finals she...rejected me." I knew Katie was just trying to cheer me up. Her eye-brows always twitched when she lied. I asked, "You're kidding right? I mean your eye-brows are twitching and everything." She gave me such an upset look I knew she wasn't joking.

I'm Faith Kingsmon, I'm 16 with brown hair, brown eyes and dark skin. What just happened was the end of my life and the begginning of a new one... The bell rang and we quickly wiped out eyes and walked to our lockers. I decided right there and then at my locker I was a horrible artist, should never pick up a sketch-book again and I should give up art. But my art was my life, and my life was my art......How could I give up life?

Labels: Dark Era

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Thursday, June 19, 2008

Just so people know...

Just to let people know, my blog crashed AGAIN...so I changed it AGAIN. I changed the name, and I'm gonna change some of what I write about. I think that I gotta write about different stuff other than how my day was. I'm gonna write about well, different things.

I feel like I shouldn't just write about myself, I should write about God.... Because I just wanna.

posted by waterfalls-in-paradise @ Tuesday, June 17, 2008